Why Different Now?

Why Different Now?
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Why different now and not the same?
From childhood friends, then one day changed.
I see her yet I cant imagine
What happened to our hearts and brains.
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Our images quivering in the river
Both she and I are hardly known.
Yet across so small a space delivered
A more lovely person is now forever grown.
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As children oft we played together
Each day was sunshine filled with joy.
She was my best friend and I hers also.
Who knew she was girl and I now boy?
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Then something like a cover lifted
And from her bosom grew such swell.
In awe I watch and also risen
To find new urges hard to quell.
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My heart now races as I see her;
My mouth so dry, though waters near.
I once could talk with her forever.
Yet now no words seem to reach our ears.
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So down I look to view our being
And contemplate this awful threat
How can I speak and not look foolish
This is my fearful, quiet regret.
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(So soft she sits in silent splendor
Her skin like peach fuzz ripe to kiss
That shall I ever dare to find there
The heart so dear of the friend I miss?)